2016

March 14, 2016

MARCH..in like a LION

It has been a busy CRAZY couple of months.

Right now we are getting ready for Sloan’s Birthday. SHE WILL BE 5!!!   I can’t believe it…it is a hard age for me and it takes me back to Noelle being her and being 5 at Sloan’s 3^rd Birthday.  I can’t help but have the excited look on my face, but my heart tells a different story.  I hurt so much and it is so difficult to go though this life without Ms. Noelle to celebrate with us here physically.  I know she is close so often though…even this last weekend while at a wedding for Taiya, I saw the biggest ladybug..

It was on the outside of our hotel. Drew and I went down as a couple to Payson, UT for the wedding and left the kiddos at home with my mom and dad. 

The temple experience was amazing and I could feel her so close, and remembering her when we were in the sealing room.  Her cute outfit, and her smile…I got super teary eyed and I know that she was with us that day. 

We have had some upsetting news on my side of the family for the last couple of months.  In January--Brittney and Kelly were expecting, TWINS, but we have lost them…only to have Kari and AJ go through the same thing.  No twins, but the loss. My heart aches for them and the loss.  I know the excitement of learning you are expecting--from the moment you know for sure, your heart and head start planning out the rest of the life of that baby….  I hope and pray that we can all look to our loving Heavenly Father and remember the Plan of Salvation.  I know that without it, I would be ruined after the loss of Noelle. 

This will forever be my post of Noelle--Noelle is now 5 and is such a good helper.  She is constantly cleaning up and doing more than her share of cleaning up after her little sister and brother.  She just graduated from Ms. Connie’s preschool and is excited to start KINDERGARTEN in the fall.  She can’t wait and talks about riding the bus—little does she know that will hardly ever happen…as I am scared for her to do those things… She still has problems brushing her hair…she will fight me most mornings, but Allie bought the girls a pink brush and it is a miracleJ.  Noelle is growing up and getting so pretty.  She has some issues with self-esteem and says sometimes “I don’t look pretty”.  She has fly-away hairs and “its messy”..I love her and she is such a sweet spirit.. I get down on her sometimes b/c I know she is capable of so much more.  I do need to be patient with her and let her figure out stuff on her own time I need to remember that I love her so much, and she looks up to me and loves me.  She is quick to tell me that she is sorry when she does something wrong. I can already see that she has a tender heart and tries so hard to make all of us happy.  LOVE HER!!  

3/14/2016

UPDATE: We have finalized her Headstone, and it should be ready to set within the next few weeks…I am so excited to finally be able to give this final gift to her..I know she would love it…

Sloan has been sick off and on for the last three weeks, and we have missed a lot of daycare…she enjoys it, but I also know she likes to spend the time here with me and her dad, and brothers.  We had a transformation a few weeks ago..she decided that she wanted to cut her hair off!!!  ITS ADORABLE! She will graduate this spring (May) from Ms. Connie’s and go to Kindergarten in the fall.  I took in an application to the BCCLC?? And hopefully she will get in—they have Fridays off and it is where ABBY works J  She is my little helper and often I forget that she is only 4.  She enjoys going to church and reminds me often that we are going to church right?..we attended the annual Udy Cattle Company Bullsale last week and she loved it and was so good—I was so busy running around with Rhett, and I am so glad/lucky to have my parents camper out there.  Her birthday is in three days…ahhhhhh

Sloan is starting to become such a beautiful woman…she isn’t that toddler anymore, and she really is growing so much, and turning into so much more.  She is a blessing to me, even when we butt heads.  She has so much good in her, and I need to help her grow and develop…I am scared that she will shut down and not come to me with problems because she doesn’t want to upset me.  She IS AMAZinG!!!!

Rhett is now 27 months…boy is he BUSY.  He keeps me moving all the time.  He wants what he wants and often tells me NO.  He loves his “OWIE” and has a sudden concern for all things baby.  The other day he ran up from the basement telling  me something about a baby….i figured Owen needed something, but upon inspections Drew and I found out that he was just worried about “Baby Hercules”….TFC J  Church is still a handful and he often escapes my handholds and gets away.  He loves Nursery and CARS!!!  He has been helping out with our nightly prays and loves to help anywhere he can—loves Owen and Sloan and Lala…and the Dog LOLA.   He always wants to be outside, and throws a tantrum when he gets told to come in.  He likes to count and watch MICKEY MOUSE..  RHETTERS.. he is so much fun, and he really does bring so much light into my life. His personality is funny and it really does remind me of Noelle.  He has been dancing around lately..tapping his one foot…he started this out at grandma afton shawver’s.  He has a huge heart too…I love that about all my kids.  I hope that he continues to learn the gospel and shares it with others.  He is amazing and determined for such a young kid.  He will go far, if he can keep his temper in check.  I love you RHETT Kenneth GRANT Shawver!!!!

Little OWIE..Owen is getting so big.  I have an appointment for him in April, but I am sure he is up in his weight and height..HE IS almost 9 months..he is starting to sit up on all fours.  I thought that he would be crawling when we got back from the wedding, so I am glad that I didn’t miss that!!!  He LOVES FOOD and like to make a mess.  He is happy once he eats and drinks..he also loves to talkJ   He still likes to give me a half smile, and stick out his tongue.  He has gotten better at being left alone, I can usually get 30 min out of him now—just leaving him with toys or in the jumper, or walker.  HE LOVES THE WALKER…we go to the church on Thursdays, and he likes to “RUN” around.  He still loves being in the middle of Sloan and Rhett, he has a great eye and loves to watch Sloan and Rhett.  He loves Sloan so much and they have a special bond.  I love watching them together—she loves to hold him, and tease him and make him laugh.  Rhett likes to love on him still, and is concerned if O is crying, or if he needs more milk.  Rhett will even grab diapers for O. OWEN still isn’t sleeping throughout the night, but I don’t mind the cuddles most nights.  He loves the dog, and watches her constantly from the highchair out the window.  He has gotten better about being in the CAR and the drives.  I like to think that he has done better since we went to the Chiropractor.  OWEN is a blessing beyond measure.  He came to me and us at a time when I needed it the most.  I know that he will continue to bless our lives and I feel that Noelle knew that I needed him.  I know that he will understand so much about her and ask so much about her when the times comes.  I hope he continues to grow and develop.  That he can have a understanding of his purpose here on earth.  I hope that his dad and I can be examples and be great ones at that. I hope that he will continue to CTR, and follow Sloan and Rhett’s examples, and that he can be an example to them as well. 

Best Moment this week:

The temple Sealing for TAIYA was amazing.  I am glad that DREW and I were able to attend.  I love spending time with Drew, when it is just us, we fight a LOT LESS!!! 

Getting back to my parents and loving on our kids was amazing too!!! I love that we have gone on two trips in the last two weeks and that my parents could helps us out both times.  We were only gone over night on both trips, but it was good for us to get to be “together” and I know that we needed it!!!