hey...i was doing ok this am and now for the last 30 minutes i have been bawling...i just can't seem to stop. I think about little things and they just bring me to tears. I was putting away a stupid cup and now i'm just beside myself.
I think about her everyday, and just some days are harder than others..I found all of the Easter eggs from last year, and i can remember playing "hot and cold game" just weeks, possibly days before she passed...WHY?!!???
I am dreading Easter weekend/Sunday and spending it with The Shawvers, don't get me wrong, it just that i don't know if i can be happy happy all day, while part of me is gone and will never return... :(
Yes part of me is so grateful for what we have and still have and what we will have again one day,...but that one day seems so far away!!!
I just miss her...
Drew and I have been getting along ok :) Normal for us..we laugh and cry together and often find ourselves being told to "quite fighting" a quote that Sloan learned from her Beautiful Older Sister :)--Love you NOELLE!!
We are not necessarily fighting but we can just be talking and Sloan will yell at us this quote. I have found that She is amazing and continues to amaze me DAILY with her strength and Knowledge about Noelle, the Savior, the Plan of Salvation.. :) Even at Church, she has brought teachers and leaders to tears about who has seen Heavenly Father and we can all see him :)
Rhetts been a little sick over the past two-th
Noelle's song just came on the Pandora Account--Cher Lloyd--Want you Back
Rhett's been sick over the past 2-3 months, this time it isn't croupy. Grandma Debbie thinks that it could be more related to allergies..we will have to see..as Sloan was my sickie and continues to deal with a runny nose and sneezing...Noelle was seldom sick, and when she was you could TELL.
Rhett has been signing more, but still gets grumpy and just wants to pound the table for more :)
Sloan has been helping out a little more, and is super protective of Rhett and always wants to be with him and taking care of him..let me give him his bottle...let me get his jammies ready, let me wash his hair....etc..
She has started going to Connie's 4 days a week, and this week they are having an Easter Egg hunt, and the older kids from Snake River are out on Spring Break, so today we got to see TESSA --Noelle's best Friend!!
The Kids are loving having a dog. Lola has been pretty good and is really getting BIG!! She was 45 pounds at her 4 month check up...i can imagine that she is somewhere around 60 lbs now..
She is outside most days, but there have been times, when Sloan pleads for her to be inside on COLD Days.. :)
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